Damm Damm Damm——-you would think my family could catch a break , but I guess not , My sister’s oldest daughter is in the hospital and she is at the top of the transplant list for a liver, but things are not looking good this morning, if something doesn’t happen TPQ we sre going to lose her too, and we just lose her Mother two weeks ago. I know life can get tough but some times it just keeps kicking you.

Sorry I keep putting bad news here , but sometimes ya just have to talk even if it is just to your computer. and online friends ( if I have any )

She has three daughters one is 27 and twins just turned 15 on the 4th on March and two granddaughters, the pain of losing their grandmother was bad enough , but if they lose their Mother I don’t know what will happen, I have tried to be there for them all but I have to say it is really hard on me too.

I was hopeing to have good things to write about today ,  so think I wil try and visit some and hope things are happy for you all.

LOVE AND LIGHT-STARWOLF

Well it is spring time here and it is early too , all the trees have leaves and dogwoods and  azaleas are blooming three weeks early even for us, it will be in the 80′s most of the week but cool down again Thursday, sure hope we do not get frost now, seems like every year when the azaleas get all bloomed and pretty we get one hell’va rain and just beats them down, but we surely need rain here now, it is really dry, Larry is going to mown the lawn today ( I HOPE ) for some reason he thinks just leaving it all winter is good for it, with that I dis-agree, heck it just lets the weeds and insects take over then I have to work all spring to try and get in back in order, WELLLLL I kinda got him started I went out and cut back the bananas trees and the bushes and left then laying for him to clean up  he won’t be able to just look at them layiny there and I will NOT pick them up , Oh well some times ya just have to give others a little push to get them going  altho he does work hard in the spring and summer keeping it up, winter seems to be his lazy time-WINTER IS OVER!!!

Talked to little Anthony last night he will be 5 years old on the 26th ( can’t believe he is already 5 ) asked him what he wanted for his birthday, and he said ” Lighting McQueen ” I had to ask his Mom what that was, of course it is a video game , his cousin was over and had a nintenoDS and let him play on it now he is just dying to get one, guess he doesn’t realize he can’t play the game without the DS ,so guess I will have to buy him one or maybe I will give him an Xbox 360 will have to ask his Mom if she thinks he can play it. He has three calfs so he has to feed them everyday when he gets home from school I can’t believe kids his age go to school the whole day ( but guess that sure helps young mothers) he starts at 8 am and gets out at 3 pm , so she will have to set times he can play his video games .

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                                                   MONDAY        A M

Well had to stop in the middle of this yesterday and just now geting back, kids calling mine and my sisters all have problems, so guess who gets the call and it ain’t ghost busters -oh well I will help where I can but not take sides ….deal with….

Wanted to go to Lowes Saturday and get mulch and plant food and potting soil but Larry had to work and I just wasn’t going by myself to do all that I needed he for fetch and carry , so gues that will be next weekends project, as al the flower beds need cleaning and new mulch put in and of course they all need weeding and just spring time care, had a problem with deer eating my roses last year and sure hope they have found anew cafe this year so I don’t have so mush spraying to do , and “Deer Off” is not real cheap and it  stinks too.  “but the deer hate it too.”

Josh is out od Iraq and back at his base in Hawaii, and the grand-daughters tel me he is hugh and not fat just buff of course they have only seen pictures of him as he has been gone along time, so HEY how is it that I don’t  get any pictures after all I do not live on Mars I am right here. oh well he is comong home on the 18th for a visit maybe I will get to se him then.

So okay hope everyone has a GREAT DAY.

LOVE AND LIGHT-STARWOLF

Well it has been a tough week around here, but things are getting better , the pain of losing someone is always with us and we will always miss them, but I am glad she is no longer suffering.

I had talked to her the Sunday before and she sounded fine all happy and chipper and her kids and grandkids were visiting with her and I told her I would be out to see her the next day, the next morning I called and her daughter said she had a bad night, and when I got there she was in bad shape and in alot of pain and she was just out of it, we had just started hospice care the week before for her as her pain was geting worse and they could be there to help they had her on morphine every three hours but it was like she fell off a mountain from Sunday to Monday and went all the way to the bottom I am not sure she even knew I was there I stayed most of the day trying to help her, then Iwent back the next day and she was worse and they up her morphine to every hour, I think up to this point I still believe she would win the battle but then it really came home that I was really going to lose her and it was now I called Wednesday morning and her daughter said she could get her to wake up but she was sleeping and didn’t seem to be in any pain, she was just laying there sleeping and could not be woken up not even for her meds, I knew she was going but she was going peacefully , like God had taken over and she was at peace and out of pain, the next morning I woke up at 3 am and knew in my heart she had left us.

                                     MAY YOU REST IN PEACE AND JOY WITH GOD

                   LOVE AND LIGHT -STARWOLF

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                                       PAULINE                JEANETTE

                                Born Jan. 28 1936 –left this world  Feb. 26  2009

                 Rest in peace my dear Sister , I will miss you and see ya later

It is hard when you have a loved one in harms way, for you are helpless to help them or keep them safe, but as our children and grandchildren grow up they step into their own lives and kinda leave you behind,  as most of you who know me know that three of my grandchildren were with me for 12 years so they were very close to me.2 boys and 1 girl )  Well now they are all grown and Jeremey has a baby girl of his own and twins stepchildren ( I hate that word because they are like his own kids) and Jayla has a son and a new baby girl , But Josh is in the Marines and he is in Iraq and has been for awhile now ( I can’t hardly handle it ) but he is coming home soon if the Lord is willing but then he has to go to Afghanistan ,

It was hard with my own kids but it is worse with my grandkids , Josh was the the sweetest kid and the most tender hearted of all my grandbabies and for him to be in Iraq has got to be killing him and I am afraid that Afghanistan will be worse ( God please keep him safe )

Who would have ever thought that this sweet thing ===

Would grow up to this sweet thing===========

GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU SAFE BABY, I LOVE YOU.   KEEP THEM ALL SAFE AND BRING THEM HOME.

May all your loved ones be safe , and those who still live in our hearts watch over them.

HAVE A GREAT DAY.

LOVE AND LIGHT STARWOLF

We would have been married thirty years today—I’ll aways love you babe and I’ll always mis you

                                                                         STARWOLF

Well its saturday morning early  don’t know why I can not slep late on week ends BUT NO not me I wake up around 4 am and can’t go back to sleep Sooooooooo here I am drinking coffee and trying to post something new  wanted to visit everybody but things got in the way or maybe I should say life got in the way ..

As most of you know my sister has lung cancer and for the last two years it has been rough on al of us she is stil with us but just barely and it is hard to watch a loved one go thur that, she gets weaker every day and sleeps alot she is in alot of pain and and they give her so much pain meds its no wonder that she sleeps all the time, I think after awhile and you take so many that they don’t work any more because you have gotten so use to them.

We went thur- radiation-chemotherapy-I have taken her to so many doctors I had to get a note book to keep up with where we needed to be next ( I love my sister and would do anything to help her) we had pet scans-lung imaging. it was some new all most everyday. first they started her off with fours weeks of radiation and we had to go in fives days a week for that – then they started chemo and we went once a week for that for four months , the first round of chemo did well and the tumors were almost gone but then a new one grew, so they had to stop giving her that chemo and try tried a stronger one but it was to strong for her and really knocked her down, and since them she has weak , the last chemo made she really sick and made her have realy bad nose bleeds it was scary and all her hair came out so I had to shave her head, wel she only had two treatments of that and they tool her off it because she just could not handle it. then we went thur another round of radiation , but nothing stopped the cancer but it did slow it down.

Then she had some kind of spell , she had been in the hospital and her granddaughter was staying with her at night and she came in one after noon and found her acting realy strange , kinda like a person who had a stroke, so they rush her to the hospital , But it wasn’t a stroke and no body knows what happened, so from then on she couldn’t be left alone, I told her kids they had to step up and help as I just could not do everything, and I couldn’t stay with her 24/7 ———-So her granddaughter and youngest daughter were going to take turns staying with her, of course that didn’t last long as the granddaughter has two young daughters of her own and she works and goes to school too –So then her daughter just about moved in with her- but she has a family too-so her husband added aroom to thier house so they could move her in with them, and they did–of course sister isn’t too happy about that but something had top be done, I didn’t have room here and her other daughter is too sick herself ( she is on the liver transplant list) so guess this will have to work, I don’t get to see as much because they lived way out on the other side of the county from me , and I just don’t feel up to druving all the way everyday—–( I know I know I am lazy )  then everybody knows I am not getting any younger either. nor any smarter  anyway the last two years have not been easy.

But do have some good news,  3 count’em 3 new great-granddaugters- Caprice-Marlee-and Elizabeth Rayne -Caprice is one year old and Marlee is 10 months and Rayne is 3 months I went up and stayed with Jayla when Rayne was born . they are all beautiful and sweet

                                                                              CAPRICE

                                                                                  MARLEE

                                                                                 ELIZABETH  RAYNE

Well I am done for now and will see how many sites I can visit , have a great day

              ( Please forgive mistakes and language  )

                                       LOVE AND LIGHT  STARWOLF

       WELL IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I WAS HERE I FORGOT HOW TO POST, EVERYTHING IS NEW TO ME .

THO I STILL WON’T BE HERE ALOT I NOW HAVE A FASTER CONNECTION AND CAN GET AROUNDFASTER .

MY PREM. RAN OUT IN DEC. AND I DON’T KNOW IF I WILL RENEW YET.

BUT JUST WANTED TO SAY HI AND WILL TRY AND VISIT SOME.

LOVE AND LIGHT -STARWOLF