I always have the best intentions when I come on here to blog, of keeping up my blog and staying in touch with people here, but seems life always gets in the way, and with so many things going on around me it is hard to keep this up so I am here when I can be and then I am just not

Now that maded alot of sense didn't it , of course you can tell if I am here or not.

Josh is shipping out on the 14th for Afghanistan and I hate it I hate it I hate it and I don't know how I am going to handle him being there, I know we have so many of of sons daughters husbands wifes and family off in dangerous places that I am not the only one but when its your family it hits you so much harder, I made it thur his tour of duty in Iraq

 but it took 10 years off me and Afghanistan is the most dangerous place in the world right and the way I see it we don't have eought troops there to protect themselves are back each other up ( IF YOU ARE GOING TO SEND THEM, THEN SENT THEM SOME HELP AND BACKUP ) don't get me wrong I am very proud of him and what he does but that doesn't stop the fear and the worry and they are not safe anywhere just look at what just happened at Fort Hood what happened to our people on their own base is heartbreaking some of them having just returned home from Iraq and were shot down on home soil at a place they should have been safe my heart just breaking for them but no tears will bring them back, but my prayers go to all the families who are suffering this tragedy .GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Well now I am so upset I am getting off here and I will try and visit Hope you all have a GREAT DAY AND A WONDERFUL WEEK END

 LOVE AND LIGHT--STARWOLF

Well one one mess up with the little one as far as I know that is, after school last monday Anthonys Mom was waiting for his bus and it came and went NO ANTHONY well you can just guess her reaction to that , grabs the baby and off to the school " THE BUS RAN AND MY SON WAS NOT ON IT ! everybody at once OH NO !  (I can tell you it is really scary when your little one comes up missing even for a short time) then his bus shows up at the school and No he was not on this bus ???? off she goes looking for for her son then as she is getting back to her street she sees the bus and there he is showing the driver where he lives , seems when his teacher saw the street name where he lives she said oh thats my route and puts him on her bus, BUT he lives on the west and her route was on the east , lucky for them they live in a little bitty town and only have two school buses, he knows how to get to his house from the highway . so once they got there he could tell her where he lived  it may be funny now but it sure was not funny when it was happening. I am always telling her keep your eyes on the kids never leave them in the car , watch  him till he gets on the bus, never turn your back on them. you just can't believe how fast they can go missing. well she knows now.

 I remember when my oldest daughter was a baby and we lived in a very small town too so we always had our kids outside playing, everybody did. I also had a new baby ( well I guess I was good at something) anyway the kids were playing in the yard and I was sitting on the steps watching them and I had to go check on the baby, I told them you stay right here Mommy is going to see about the baby and I will be right back, I was not gone more than 90 seconds and when I got back my 2 year daughter WAS GONE we looked everywhere for her I was in a panic, I had no car , no phone, no one around but me and the kids , somehow I got all three kids and ran to the school to get my Aunt who was working there to help me we were looking and could not find her ( how does a 2 year old get away that fast and where is she) I just knew someone had somehow taken her, well just as they were going to turn the school out to help look for her as we had searched the town it didn't take long , the little old lady who lived about two hundred yards for us came walking out with her saying "she came to visit and we were having milk and cookies" Hell Fire woman couldn't you hear me screaming for my baby? I didn't know if I want to hug her to death or beat her litttle bottom, but you can believe I never left them in the yard alone again , if I went in they went in too.

Well we have had a lot more rain and we needed it so thats a good thing, the MAN needed a new weedeater so I gave him a check so he could stop on his way home and pick one, did he NO he got up early Saturday morning and went in, then spends 325.00 bucks on a damm weedeater WHAT ! well you know that knocked a big hole in my budget, who in the hell needs a $325.00 weedeater, ????? so you know he spent the rest of the day working in the yard, ( he really didn't want to come in too early ) he worked his little but off , had to show me he really needed that high priced thing , guess what Bubba you are going to be doing alot of  yard work til Winter.  Oh well I can't bitch too much as I get whatever I want when ever I want

I do not remember if I wrote about this before or not but he was off work for three months this Summer he was in the hospital three times  , The 2nd day of April he came home shaking with fever and went right to bed and the next two weeks he pretty much stayed in the bed, I tried everyday to get him to go to the ER but no way, then on the 15th he got up and said " I think you better that me to the ER" I knew then he was really sick and he had been self medicating himself and nothing was working, I just knew he had pneumonia and he did but not the everyday kind, he had bacteria pneumonia and one of his lungs had filled almost up with fluid they had to put a tube in his lung and drain it for two days , we almost lost him , because he won't go to the ER earlier, altho he has insuarnce they really don't like to pay you when you are off sick and they do not even start paying until 7 days after your first visit to the doctor well he was off work for 15 days before he went in so you guessed it NO MONEY, so what to do , well if you are lucky you have a couple of bucks put back, so there went the saving , and I am still playing catch up, and have a stack of medical bills on my desk that will just have to wait for now. But I don't think I will have any more problems getting him to go to the doctor.

Oh Okay enough of my rambling will try and visit today or tomorrow , hope all of you are well and happy have a wonderful day

LOVE AND LIGHT-STARWOLF

Hello and happy Wednesday  Just another day around here, but we did get lots of rain yesterday, of course it is so dry it will take alot more , in the 10 years I have lived here I have never seen our lake so low, maybe more rain today NO Storms Please .

Baby Darieus is doing fine seems that what was wrong with him was nothing but the darn doctors they gave his Mom pain meds just before he was born and seems he got a full dose after they wore off, he was okay had the whole family jumpping hoops thinking some is really wrong with our baby , it was a very bad 24 hours

So now the little man is home and I bet his sister is having fits of her own, have not talked to them so don't know how Caprice is taking a new baby she is Daddy litle girl.

He is almost as big as a doll , but he was still early , he was over 6 pounds, doctor said if he had been full term he would have been a whopper like around 9 or 10 pounds , Me  I am just happy he is okay and home safe, now if Caprice doesn't drag him around like a rag doll        wish I could see him but guess pictures will have to do for now.

Boy I have so much fun and exciting things to write about, Well my life is peaceful for the most part and believe me thats good because it has been along hard road getting here, But like they say if have to have the pain of life so you know when the good parts come around.

HAVE A BRIGHT SUNSHINE AND HAPPY DAY

LOVE AND LIGHT-STARWOLF